Camera Aur Light Chalu Thi... Phir Bhi Video Nahi Bana Paya
Aaj ek ajeeb sa moment hua.
Maine camera laga diya.
Light bhi chalu kar di.
Sab ready tha.
Camera saamne.
Light saamne.
Aur main...
Bas baitha raha.
Video bana hi nahi paya.
Pata nahi kyon.
Koi technical problem nahi thi.
Camera kharab nahi tha.
Light kharab nahi thi.
Time ki bhi koi bahut badi problem nahi thi.
Phir bhi andar se aisa lag raha tha jaise main ruk sa gaya hoon.
Aur shayad sabse ajeeb baat ye hai ki mujhe pata bhi nahi tha ki main kis cheez se ruk raha hoon.
Kya bolunga?
Kaise bolunga?
Video achha lagega ya nahi?
Log kya sochenge?
Pata nahi.
Shayad ye sab ek saath dimaag me chal raha tha.
Aur phir camera on hone ke baad bhi...
Main record nahi kar paya.
Pehle mujhe lagta tha ki beginning stage me problem sirf resources ki hoti hai.
Camera nahi hai.
Light nahi hai.
Mic nahi hai.
Setup nahi hai.
Lekin kabhi-kabhi resources sab hote hain.
Phir bhi hum start nahi kar paate.
Problem bahar nahi hoti.
Problem andar hoti hai.
Aur mujhe lagta hai ki ye bahut logon ke saath hota hai.
Jab hum kisi naye kaam ki beginning stage me hote hain na...
Tab hum khud ko bahut judge karte hain.
“Achha nahi hua to?”
“Log hasenge to?”
“Video boring hua to?”
“Bolte waqt atak gaya to?”
“Pehli video hi kharab ho gayi to?”
Aur in saare questions ka answer dhoondhte-dhoondhte...
Hum record button hi nahi dabate.
Aaj mere saath bhi shayad wahi hua.
Main video banana chahta tha.
Setup bhi ready kiya.
Lekin dimaag ne mujhe start nahi karne diya.
Aur honestly...
Is baat ko accept karna bhi zaroori hai.
Har baar hum confident nahi honge.
Har baar camera ke saamne comfortable feel nahi hoga.
Har baar words perfect nahi honge.
Beginning me awkwardness hogi.
Galti hogi.
Kabhi video delete karna padega.
Kabhi khud ko dekhkar lagega...
“Ye kya bana diya?”
Lekin shayad isi process se confidence aata hai.
Confidence pehle nahi milta.
Confidence karte-karte banta hai.
Pehli video banane ke baad doosri thodi easy hogi.
Doosri ke baad teesri.
Aur kuchh time baad shayad wahi camera jo aaj mujhe rok raha hai...
Kal normal lagne lage.
Isliye aaj video nahi bana paya to iska matlab ye nahi ki main nahi bana sakta.
Bas aaj main ruk gaya.
Kal phir camera lagaunga.
Light chalu karunga.
Aur koshish karunga ki is baar...
Record button daba doon.
Ho sakta hai video perfect na ho.
Lekin perfect video banane se pehle...
Ek imperfect video banana zaroori hai.
Aur shayad beginning stage ka asli struggle bhi yehi hai.
Hum duniya se nahi...
Kabhi-kabhi khud se lad rahe hote hain.
Aaj main video nahi bana paya.
Lekin kahani yahin khatam nahi hoti.
Kal phir try karunga.
Aur shayad kal...
Camera aur light ke beech main sirf baithunga nahi.
Record bhi karunga.