Aaj to bas main sochte hi baitha raha.

Socha tha video banaunga.

Camera bhi hai.

Light bhi hai.

Setup bhi ready hai.

Lekin...

Video aaj bhi nahi ban paya.

Aur sabse funny baat pata hai?

Aaj poora din mere paas tha.

Lekin din nikal gaya.

Sochte-sochte.

Kabhi laga pehle topic decide kar leta hoon.

Phir laga pehle thoda prepare kar leta hoon.

Phir laga camera ke saamne exactly kya bolunga?

Phir ek aur thought.

Phir doosra.

Phir teesra.

Aur dekhte hi dekhte...

Time khatam.

Video nahi bana.

Ye cheez thodi ajeeb lagti hai.

Kyuki poore din aisa nahi laga ki main kuchh nahi kar raha.

Dimaag me kuchh na kuchh chal hi raha tha.

Main soch raha tha.

Plan kar raha tha.

Imagine kar raha tha.

Lekin actual me...

kuchh bana nahi raha tha.

Aur shayad yehi overthinking ki sabse ajeeb baat hai.

Hume lagta hai ki hum progress kar rahe hain.

Lekin kabhi-kabhi hum sirf apne dimaag ke andar hi ghoom rahe hote hain.

Ek thought.

Phir doosra thought.

Phir doubt.

Phir us doubt ka answer.

Phir naya doubt.

Aur action?

Wo wahi ka wahi reh jata hai.

Aaj mere saath exactly yehi hua.

Main video banana chahta tha.

Lekin video banane se pehle hi maine uske baare me itna soch liya ki...

video banane ki energy hi khatam ho gayi.

Pehle mujhe lagta tha ki kaam start karne ke liye motivation chahiye.

Ab lagta hai...

Kabhi-kabhi motivation ka wait karna bhi ek tarah ka delay hai.

Har cheez ke liye mood perfect nahi hoga.

Har baar confidence nahi hoga.

Har baar idea clear nahi hoga.

Phir bhi start karna padega.

Ho sakta hai pehli video achhi na bane.

Ho sakta hai main camera ke saamne atak jaun.

Ho sakta hai mujhe khud hi video pasand na aaye.

Lekin kam se kam video to banegi.

Aaj jo nahi hua...

Usko lekar ab poori raat regret karne se bhi kya hoga?

Aaj ka time chala gaya.

Wapas nahi aayega.

Lekin kal abhi aaya nahi hai.

Aur kal mere paas ek simple option hai.

Phir se camera lagana.

Light chalu karna.

Aur is baar...

Zyada sochna nahi.

Bas record karna.

Mujhe lagta hai beginning stage me hume ye seekhna bahut zaroori hai.

Har cheez ko perfect banane ke chakkar me...

Kahin aisa na ho ki hum kuchh banaye hi na.

Aaj mera video nahi bana.

Theek hai.

Aaj ka din gaya.

Lekin journey nahi gayi.

Kal phir try karunga.

Shayad kal bhi perfect na ho.

Lekin ek difference hoga.

Kal main sirf sochunga nahi.

Kuchh karunga bhi.

Aur shayad isi tarah dheere-dheere ye hesitation kam hoga.

Ek video.

Phir doosri.

Phir teesri.

Aur ek din shayad camera ke saamne baithkar mujhe itna sochna hi na pade.

Aaj ke liye bas itna hi.

Aaj main sochte-sochte reh gaya.

Time nikal gaya.

Video nahi bana.

Lekin kal...

Kal dekhte hain.

Is baar record button dabate hain.